Friday, September 19, 2008

But I'm big, Mommy


Lately, Lindy has been very caught up in being a big girl. Many times during the day she'll proclaim she's big enough to do something. I'll admit there are things I say no to her about because in my mind she's still too little and she's out to prove that's not the case. Instead of fighting, she'll often say in a reassuring voice, "It's okay, Mommy. I'm big for that." Lately I've been struck by the fact that she is getting bigger and boy is it ever bittersweet. I just want to keep her little and freeze her right where she is...

As someone who would love to turn the clock back some (or quite a bit), it is hard to remember the days when you wanted to move it forward. The other day I pulled something out of her closet and was surprised she was too big for it. I jokingly said in a stern but playful voice, "When did you get so big? I don't like it one bit. Stop growing. You must stop growing." Next thing I knew, she had the biggest tears spilling from her eyes. Of course I felt terrible, so I started crying, too. When I asked her what was wrong and reassured her I was teasing, she told me, "But I want to be big, Mommy. I want to be big..." I think she was crushed that I wasn't excited she was getting big.

My dear Lindy, I want you to know I enjoy every day with you--even the hard days. As much as I would like to keep you from getting bigger, I know that's not the way things work. Today you promised you would always be my little girl no matter what. I can't wait to see what our life together unfolds...

I Can't Wait

by Sara Groves & Don Chaffer

When you reach the proper age
I will teach you to read and you can turn the pages
How to dress and tie your shoes
Your one plus ones, and your two times two's
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't wait

As you grow, I'll show you things
How to ride your bike and kick your legs out on the swings
To fold your hands and bow your head
How to say your prayers before you go to bed
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't wait

How do you sleep so peacefully?
How do you trust unflinchingly?
How do you love so faithfully?
How do you dance so joyfully?
Oh you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important (essential) things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't
No I can't
Come teach me
Of love and dreams
And all the most essential thing
And all that I have lost along the way
Cause I can't wait

14 comments:

Chera said...

That song is perfect!! I always appreciate seeing words to different songs for obvious reasons. ;o) I can definitely relate with your feelings...I always tell my kids they have to stop growing!! But, I am also excited about all the different things they will experience as they continue to grow up.

sara said...

Oh, that's the perfect song to make a video to!! it is exciting & bittersweet at the same time - all of it....

Kate said...

It is so bittersweet! I tired to elicit a promise from ia that she would always be my baby girl....but she would NOT agree to stay little...and she also is always planning for when she is bigger and can do things "by herself"....like driving!!!

I know you are so proud of Lindy and her accomplishments...and I guess, friend, we just need to enjoy every single second with them...and try not to blink....

Sheri said...

I have so been feeling just like this. With Sarah starting preschool this week, I just want to freeze time! I look at my 6'1" almost 17-year-old son and know that it goes by so quickly. This song is great and so appropriate! Thanks for sharing it.

Jcbaron99 said...

Yes, I too have been stuggling with this very thing A LOT this year with Summer, especially the past few months with her turning 5 and going to school 5 days a week. I tell her the same thing all the time. She now says "You just can't stop me Mom (I'm Mom now lot os times - not Mommy :-( ) Nothing you can do about it. I also am enjoying this "older" phase too. Big girl things, shopping, crafting...... I'll two little partners now. I do find that I hold Jillian much more than the others. Cherishing her babyness. She's probably never going to crawl!! Thanks for sharing.

Heather said...

Great post, Lis. Ugh, I hate that they keep getting bigger. Today, Em laid her head on my shoulder in the car (we were riding in the back seat of my folks car) and I could not believe she was tall enough to do this - it made my heart sink.

I hear ya' girl!

But I must offer, Lindy is incredibly wise and completely adorable, but I am with you, she is still too little for lots of things;)

Love,
Heather

Jboo said...

That is so sweet! And no matter how big she gets, she will always be your little girl! Enjoy your Sunday!

Janet

mommy24treasures said...

oh, what a post!:)
Lindy does seem incredibly wise. As well as adorable;)
I love the poem and the song.
I too, think it i bittersweet. They do seem to grow so fast. I want to enjoy each season of their precious lives.

DiJo said...

Where do you find these beautiful words/songs?
I may have to plaigarize this one. It is priceless, and so true!!!

Love,
Di

Kayren said...

Bless your hearts! We have the opposite going on right now because Jaxon keeps saying "I jus little mommy-you do it" I am trying to cherish this because I know it won't be long before he will be big too. By the way I love the starbucks cup that looks to be bigger than her head.

sheryl said...

Oh how I can ever relate to this Lisa! My LuLu will probably be my last baby and boy is it ever hard to watch her grow up! I am so very proud and excited to see the little person she is becoming, but selfishly, I miss my baby. :( I am always telling her not to grow anymore and she always says right back "But I can't stop it Mommy!" Then I look at my teenage son & daughter and my heart really sinks. They are turning into adults before my very eyes but only seems like yesterday that they were babies too.

Love the song! I just might have to use some of those lyrics for a scrapbook page I am working on - it's perfect.

Hugs,
Sheryl

sara said...

I was just at 3 Peanuts & Kim has some GREAT shots of your Lindy..from a distance I was like "I have seen that sweet face somewhere..." - then when it blew up I saw it was your Lindy!!!!

Jennifer said...

I love Katie just the way she is too. I often wish I could "freeze" her at this age. They really grow so fast don't they?

What a sweet girl Lindy is! Cherish every moment with her!

Jen

Tamra said...

My mom still makes sure I know I know I'm her "baby girl who is little and big at the same time." I've heard that for so many years and it makes me laugh -- but it's true!